Making Time

I will admit I tend to be busy. Way busier than I want to be most of the time. It’s because I have a hard time telling someone no.

I have been the guy most of my life that people could count on. If you needed something done call Brad. He will say yes, he’ll get it done, he won’t say no. It has been a blessing and a curse. I love being able to help but I get so easily overextended because there are things I need to do for me too.

As of late I have let some things slide, I have failed to take care of people that have been there for me. I haven’t been as good of a friend as I should. These are things I am in the process of rectifying, but as with true change it’s going to take some time.

While trying to decide what I was doing wrong I found myself replaying in my head day to day, minute to minute, and sometimes second by second of my life. Where had my time gone? What has this time produced? Was this time well spent? What comes next is hard for me to admit and will be a huge point I have to change moving forward.

I found that I have been making time for people that are always too busy for me. I have allowed people who are close to me to wait on me while I attempt to cater those who don’t reciprocate the energy. I have canceled plans and not made plans only to have been stood up repeatedly.

Everything I give someone, every single thing, I can get back except my time. Why am I out here handing out the most valuable commodity on the planet to people who don’t value me, who can’t see my worth, who don’t understand what making time is all about.

As I said before I am going to do better, I’m going to change, I’m going to add more value to my friendships and relationships by giving them more of my time.

If you’re in my life and you’re too busy, understand I love you and out of that respect I will stop trying to steal your time by giving you mine.

As always I truly do love you.