I’m Confused

There are many things in this world that I am certain of. I am certain that I love my family. I am certain most of my family loves me. I am certain that I have to eat less and exercise more. I am certain that when I leave this earth I want people to remember my heart.

The devil is the author of confusion. When things don’t make sense to me I often find that they are farther from God. This is why I am having so much trouble right now.

I am confused about the ways of this world, about the lack of caring for your fellow man, about the disregard for life. I watch the news everyday. I have since I was a kid. I may have to stop though to save my sanity. I like to believe in people, I like to think there is more good than bad in the world, I like to believe that we can all still love. Watching the news today is just a laundry list of people breaking one commandment after another.

I am confused by the division in our country based on the amount of melanin in our skin or the lack thereof. I am disheartened by the leaders of this country fueling the divisive behavior to advance political agendas. I am at a loss as to how we are to hate others according to political affiliation, color of their skin, country of origin, and socioeconomic status when Jesus plainly commanded us to love one another.

I am confused by the willingness of today’s culture to be so willing to walk away from God to save their feelings. To live in a “whatever makes you happy” society so they don’t feel convicted by God’s will. I don’t understand how we can find this in every facet of society including his bride, the church.

What I am most confused about is what I am called to do. How am I called to make things better, how am I to use the gifts that God have me to further his kingdom, how can someone like me ever do anything to change even one mind, and most of all why would he use me?

I pray for us as believers, as a country, even as a human race. I pray that we find an end to the violence, I pray for unity, I pray for us to follow God and not the world, and yes I pray for discernment and finding what someone like me can do to change even one mind. I ask that you join with me in these prayers, and that you join with me in getting back to loving one another just like Jesus told us to.

I love you.