Leave what’s done in the past in the past. If you’re living in the past you can’t prepare for your future. If you don’t remember the past you will repeat it. Don’t let your past cripple your present. I have heard all of these in some form, maybe not word for word but the sentiment was there.
What about if you enjoyed the past? What if your were happy in the past? What if you felt loved in the past? What if you wish you were in the past? I struggle with this more than I should, more than I would like to admit, and honestly more than is healthy.
I miss the past. I miss things the way they used to be, when life was easier. Don’t misunderstand I am not trying to convince you that I have a terrible life. I live a life much like a lot of you. I struggle to wake up on time, I go to bed too late, I eat way too much junk food, and I live paycheck to paycheck. “There is always month left over at the end of my money” as CW Mendenhall would say.
What I think I miss most is the person I was before life got in the way. I miss that guy with the can do attitude, the sparkle in his eye, and the drive to get things done at all cost. I miss the energy, the emotion, the fulfillment that came with living with less stress. I miss Brad, before life changed me, before I let the world consume my soul.
Thankfully I have been given a 66 book roadmap for this life. I have an in-depth instruction manual for just how I should live. I was blessed with a love letter from my creator who loves me like only he can.
The Bible in Isaiah 41:10 says “do not fear for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous hand”. Proverbs 3:5 says “trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” From the sermon on the mount Jesus says in Matthew 6:34 “therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
My life is not perfect, I still miss Brad, but I need to move forward. I need to let the Lord order my steps and not be overtaken by the stress this world lays at our feet. Stress will be there, worry will creep in, and doubt will try to take hold. Remember the promises made from the one who created you.
I love you.
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