How

How do you let go? How do you know it’s been long enough? How do you know when the grieving should stop? How do you know when the tears will dry up?

How do you know if they knew how you felt?

I’ve dealt with loss and I’ve written about it before. Loss in an inevitable part of life. If you ever love you will lose, you will hurt, you will wonder, and you will get through it. Missing someone is like water in the ocean. It is all encompassing it is as far as you can see as deep as your soul can feel and strong enough to reshape the land. Missing someone also comes in waves. Sometimes little waves barely noticeable, sometimes bigger waves that can disrupt your day, and for me sometimes I feel like I am drowning.

We are told our instruction book for life was written long ago and we have all the answers we need. It is said to be a 66 book love letter to us from the one who loves us most. Well In Matthew 5:4 it says “Blessed are those that mourn, for they will be comforted”. During loss while I’m mourning I feel pain, sadness, hopelessness, nausea, and despair, but comforted nah not that one. God never promises us we won’t hurt, never promises we won’t miss them, never guarantees us a life without pain or loss but he instead says we will be comforted.

The time will come that when you think of them you won’t think of the last time you saw them. When they were sick just a shell of the person you knew. You will think of the smiles they caused. You will think of their laugh and how it would light up the room and change your day. You will think of the times they were there for you and helped you. You will only think of how much you loved them and how much they loved you. The changing of the memory I believe is God’s comfort. Your mourning may take longer than others you may cry more you may hurt more, but your memory of the sadness and sickness will fade and your comfort in God will be oh so much greater than you could ever imagine.

I love and miss you.