Existing

I truly am blessed. I have had to bust my behind to get everything but I have been given the strength and ability to provide, to more than provide. I have been able to be very comfortable for most of my adult life because of the gifts I was given. Somedays I struggle with nothing, everything is lined up, and I am on top of the world. Days like today I struggle with existing.

You ask why, I really don’t have an answer. That is probably the hardest part. Waking up feeling like you’re at the end of your rope without the ability to tie a knot, and lacking the energy to hang on. It truly is scary because of the unknown.

I know I am loved. I have an amazing family, I have the greatest friends anyone could want, and yet I’m looking over the edge into a deep dark hole. For No Reason.

I know people will read this that don’t believe the way I do, they don’t believe in God or a higher power. For those people I ask for positive vibes, healing energy, love. For the Christians could you pray for me, right now I need guidance, I need a light in this abyss. I Need Hope!

If you’re reading this I Love You! If you know someone who isn’t reading this tell them I love them too.