Well here it is. Another trip around the sun on this great big rock, today makes 41. Another year of trying to be a better person, another year of failing. 365 days of trying to change for the better, only to end up yet again changing for the worse. One more year of trying to love like Jesus, and falling short everyday.
This has been a rough year for me. There have been some ups and a lot of downs. I have spent so much time in the valley I forgot what the mountain top sunlight felt like on my face. I’m not complaining though. I read somewhere that you learn more lessons in the valley than you will ever learn on the mountain top. I truly feel that.
One of the things I have learned over the last year is even though I struggle, even though I fall, even though I fail, I am loved. I take great solace in that fact. God has placed me here to do something, what it is I’m not sure, but when it comes I will be the most qualified to do it. I will be the one, no one can do a better job of what God created me for than I. I still struggle with what that is.
While no one can be a better Brad than I, I could most certainly be a better Brad. Some days I don’t think I could be much worse and on those days I am more grateful for the grace of our father, my family, and my friends than you’ll ever know. I will continue to try to be better. I will continue to try to change for the better. I will continue to try to love more like Jesus. I will continue to need your grace as I fail at all of these things.
Today I woke up, I didn’t want to celebrate, I didn’t want it to be my birthday, I didn’t want to admit that I had wasted another year, but all I can do is try to do better. Thank you to everyone who reads this it truly does mean the world to me.
I love you.
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