A lot of you who know me, know that I have no problems sharing my feelings, no problem telling you that I love you, no problem letting you know when you have done something that bothered me. One thing I do have trouble with is my identity. I struggle with who I am, with who people want me to be, and with who God says that I am.
One thing I am positive about is that I am not nor will I ever be perfect. If I haven’t let you down yet I will. I have let down everyone who has ever counted on me, not because I wanted to or because I didn’t care. I have let them down because I am not who they expected, not who they wanted, and not who they thought I was.
I’m not sure who I am supposed to be. I want to be a good person, I want to love everyone, and sometimes most importantly I want to be loved. I feel that I lived a life that doesn’t warrant forgiveness, understanding, or love honestly.
Luckily for me all of my shortcomings, all of my failures, all of the times I have let everyone down has not separated me from God’s love. Regardless of what people see on the outside, from their glass castles God can use a failure like me for good. He can turn even my mess into a message. He can be glorified through my pain he can reach someone through my struggles. For that I am undeserving, unworthy, and oh so grateful.
Thank you God for your grace being sufficient when my life here on earth hasn’t been. If God can use me think of the lives he can change through each of you.
I love you.
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