If you’re anything like me you put so much thought into everything, sometimes (more than I like to admit) overthinking things a bit. The overthinking will drive you almost into a pure panic attack. It really can turn a mountain into a mole hill.
This morning I am thinking about that last call. No not at 2am right before all the lights come on. I’m talking about when the end is near, times up, when you game is over. Who will be receiving that last call? Now most people will be surrounded by people you love when the time comes, I hope, but if you’re not who’s gonna be on the other end of that call?
For some people it will be their parents. Their mom or dad or maybe even both. Do you take that opportunity to tell them thank you for loving me, thank you for providing, thank you for being the single most important person in my life, and loving me when I didn’t deserve it? For others do you take time to say I forgive you? I forgive you for not being there, for choosing other things besides me, for choosing me last and sometimes not at all. I forgive you for hurting me physically or emotionally or for letting me down every time I looked to you for support.
Some people will call their spouse to say thank you. You were there for me through thick and thin. We made it through all the things that were supposed to destroy us. Thank you for loving me through blank, or thank you for loving me regardless of blank. Do you call them to let them know how they let you down? Do you call to tell them all of the things you’ve been holding in, the things you’ve wanted to say for years, but just couldn’t?
A lot of people will call their kids. Call and say you are the light of my life. You are the reason I tried so hard, I worked so hard, I fought so hard to provide to be the parent you deserved to lead you in the way you should live. Maybe it’s more akin to why did you have to give me such a hard time in your teens? Why did you not live up to your potential? Why did you make this decision or that decision that left you in such an unsafe, unstable, or undesirable place? Didn’t I raise you better than that?
There are others that will call their family or friends. Thank you for some of the most amazing times I can remember. We had so much fun at the beach, we laughed so much. We had so much fun just cruising with no where to go and music turned up loud. I loved spending the holidays with you, you made all of those get togethers worth going to. For others it may be to let them know how they disappointed you. You were never there when I needed you. You were never a good friend. You used me when you needed me. You were only here when it was convenient for you.
For me given the opportunity I have a long list of people to call. I know I have told you before that I have so many people that have poured into my life. So many that have showed me patience and temperance when I should’ve been shown the door. There have been so many that have showed me love when I deserved the exact opposite. I will spend my time on the phone with each and everyone of them giving thanks for the way they touched my life, speaking life into the rest of theirs, and being sure that when I take my last breath here on earth they will all know how much I love them.
But today I beg of you, go tell them today. For most of us when that day comes when we are at the end we won’t have time to make those phone calls. Call someone today, tell them thank you, tell them how God worked in your life through them, and most importantly let them know you love them.
I love you.
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