Who among us has battle scars? Who feels like they have been at the end of their rope and struggled to hang on? Who feels like they are there today? Now the most important question, Who knows you’re struggling?
This hits home with me so much more than anyone but God knows. I have battled depression for so long that it isn’t like second nature it is just who I am at this point. As I decided before I have not been depressed but instead in a depression, a dark hole that is often so deep that escaping it seems like an insurmountable obstacle. Being in this depression is hard enough by itself, but then I have anxiety compounding the problem. My anxiety comes from feeling the need to wear a mask to be happy to make others smile to encourage others when I am not sure if I can even continue through today. Being strong for others when I don’t have an ounce of strength for myself.
Now you see the real me. I am not always strong, not always happy, not always full of encouraging words. I have decided that I know where to find that joy, where to find that peace, where to find that strength, and that encouragement. I have found it in God. I have found that God created woman because he saw that man alone wasn’t good. We were put on this earth to be in relationships. We were put here to help each other, to lean on each other, to make each other better, and to love each other. No one is strong enough to bear the troubles of this earth alone, and you don’t have to. You have the Bible, you have prayer, you have God, and you have friends. No one wants to see you struggle but more importantly if you are struggling tell someone, ask for help. And to those who are not struggling be a listening ear, a strong shoulder, and a prayer warrior for those that are.
I am not free of my demons even today, but I have a plan of attack. I will conquer them with the help of God and you. If you feel like you have no one just remember God is always there and I’m not much further than a phone call away. I love you and thank you for loving me.
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