I wonder about a lot in this life. I question everything probably a lot more than I should. I read way more into things than I should, and I get my feelings hurt because I do it. I worry, I doubt, I fear.
During this season of loss I have started to wonder if I’m the only one. I wonder what others wonder about. Possibly the thing I wonder about most is whether people doubt their worth as much as I do.
I try daily and fail as often as I try to let everyone know how important they are. To make sure they know what they mean to me. I have had so many people make such an impact on my life and one of my greatest fears is not being able to return the favor for another person. I have had people that taught me that weren’t responsible for teaching me, I have had people help me when they could’ve just passed me by, and I’ve had people love me when I wasn’t very lovable. These people are the real heroes. These are the people I strive to be like, I struggle to please, and I long to make them proud.
I have lost some of the greatest teachers, friends, and people I have ever known over the last few years. Did any of them have a doubt about how much they meant to me? Did they know how much more difficult this life was going to be without them? Did they know the impact they had on shaping my life, and the fact that the things they taught me I still use or share today and will for as long as I’m on this earth.
Will I have this impact? Will I be that person for someone? Will I make a difference in someone’s life? The answer to this question for me and to you is yes. You have made an impact, you will continue to do so as well. You alone have improved someone’s life. You have given someone reason to smile reason to laugh maybe even a reason to continue moving forward in life when they wanted to stop. You have loved the unlovable, taught the unteachable, and reached the unreachable. You have done this not for glory or gratitude. You have done it because you’re a good person with a kind and loving heart. You have done this sometimes without knowing.
I know all of this to be true 100% because you have done it for me.
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