Fear

I bet fear is something we all share. Everyone is scared of something, someone, or some thought. Some fears are easily explained. Being scared of something that can kill you makes sense. Others are more difficult. Others are fears you possess whether rational or irrational it doesn’t matter because to you they are real.

Some people have this debilitating fear of snakes. The thought of one slithering towards you makes your skin crawl. The thought of it actually touching you may drive you into a full panic attack. Some of those very same people are so scared of snakes that they can’t even look at a picture of one without getting creeped out. That is an easy fear to understand. Some snakes are venomous and can indeed end you life.

For some people it’s clowns. This is one that I am sure I’ll never understand. I don’t understand how people are so scared of clowns. For most of us they brought joy to our childhood. We would see them on tv or at the circus. I’ve even seen several at birthday party’s through my life. They are there to make us happy, to put a smile on our faces. So this one makes less sense to me but I have no doubt it’s a real fear and should be respected.

A fear I have struggled with (don’t judge me) is the fear of heights. For me I don’t even think it’s the fear of falling or of death, I think it is just the fear of being off the ground. I do commercial HVAC so I spend almost everyday on rooftops working on air conditioning, so I have had to overcome this fear to a degree because I also have a fear of being hungry.

I have also struggled with other fears. This one is really hard to get sympathy for. I am scared of me. I am scared of the thoughts in my head at times. I am scared of how critical I am of myself and my situation. I am scared of getting my feelings hurt. I am scared of getting my heart broken. I am scared of not being good enough. Even with all of these fears I keep pushing forward, I keep trying, I keep putting my feelings out there, I keep loving. It’s not because I have conquered those fears it is because I have a greater one lurking in the back.

I am scared of not living. No not I am scared of dying, but I am scared of not living my life to the fullest. When my last days on this earth are here like they will be for all of us I don’t want to say if I hadn’t been scared I could’ve …. Life is never won while living in fear. Life isn’t meant to be lived cowering in a corner. We are wonderfully made, we are conquerers, we are not on this earth to be average. We are put on this earth to be amazing. So let’s overcome these fears and change the world.